My journey into the realms of the spiritual side of life started at a very early age. Realising I was different to other children and being unsure of what this otherness was, I was drawn to astrology at the age of 8. Here I went through reading Horoscopes in my parents daily papers, people such as Mystic Meg, Russell Grant and my all-time favourite Jonathan Cainer. In later years I have moved on to astrologers such as Michele Knight, Cam White, The Leo King, Kaypacha and my friend Diane Cox.
I did go through a time of being very embarrassed about being into astrology due to peer pressure and eventually got back into it again in my mid to late 20’s. For me it was information on working out why I was the way I was and gave me more answers at that particular time than any psychology could do.
Being in a rather wonderful working environment in my mid-20s I also found myself with a fantastic company where it felt like extended family. One of the people that I worked with, I ended up giving him the name of Guru. He was the one that encouraged me to get back into my astrology which I did with verve. After almost losing a partner, who at the time tried to take his own life, I went down the route of studying counselling after having some myself due to absolute exhaustion and the first breakdown in my adult life that I experienced. It was also at this time that I was diagnosed with IBS, after having a really hard time persuading my GP this is what it was and due to investigating it myself to the enth degree. No tests or medical belief at the time were around that it actually existed and the tests that were done were to rule out everything else. There was much cynicism surrounding IBS in the 90’s.
Looking at my astrology again through the filters that I now have after my diagnoses, I can actually see how things such as my rising sign, my sun sign and my moon sign, are actually reflected in the different facets of myself and those things that others call masks. To me seeing how other people experience me in life and how I approach life and what impacts me, which is represented by my rising sign, is very apparent. It is also very obvious to me when seeing how my emotions are reflected in my moon sign and how that has impacted my psychological make-up over the years . Then there is my sun sign, the core of me, this is also where my North node is placed, so those that are in the know, will be aware that this is where your karmic future lies.
I also have a very, very fun (read; sarcasm!) fixed Grand Cross within my chart. It is a particular aspect that can be very challenging. For me what understanding my birth chart does is gives me foresight and a different perspective as the observer within my life. If I’m going through a particularly wonky time and I really don’t know why, I will go searching for answers because that’s what my head does and that’s what it’s always done. I can reflect on how things are impacting my birth chart through looking at the planetary transits and see the kind of energies that I’m pulling in at the time and the areas of life that it will affect. it is not a fail-safe future predictor but it certainly has helped and supported me throughout the years to understand what might be going on at a particular time and also then having the knowledge that this too shall pass, along with knowing that the frequencies that are around I can actually turn up the better ones and turn down the worst ones.
One of the biggest lessons that I have learned or should I say I have had to learn is to actually not be so hard on myself when I am having a bad day or a low energy day. I think for those of us of the neurodivergent persuasion that this can impact us quite a lot due to how over sensitive and empathic that we are. Therefore we will have bad days and it isn’t a failure and it doesn’t mean that they are going to be there forever and at times it’s okay to actually do nothing. Which again is not an easy thing for people with very, very busy brains. I do find for me though, that my autistic side almost soothes my ADHD. When needed my ASD is the voice of reason in my little head. Whilst I have at times gone down the route of relying on other substances to stop my head I have now got to the point where I don’t really mind it, if I’m honest, I don’t mind the busyness I don’t mind the constant thoughts going through it. In fact I would miss them if they went too quiet these days! Luckily for me the Tai Chi and meditation have helped towards calming them somewhat.